One of the worst things you can do is feel awful for the incredible luck that you’ve experienced. The constant comparison of your situation to awful things leaves you stuck. You’re tethered to another realm of being that doesn’t exist. Some other plane where things are abysmal, even though in reality they are nothing of the sort.
Quite often these baseline horrors happen after traumatic events. A bankruptcy or a death. Something you’ll do anything in your power never to experience so long as you live. Initially, that fuel, that aversion, is a healthy additive to whatever motivation oyou may have. Slowly, though, the additive coagulates and starts making you work harder than you need to. There is simply no way you will experience that thing again based on your trajectory and yet you run faster and faster away from it. You desecrate the initial action from aversion. At some point, you don’t know what your even running from or running towards. That is the abyss. That is when you find yourself totally un-tethered to your actual circumstances and in an endless race against and towards oblivion.
In order to know what you want you must create the silence required for those thoughts to come. And, in order to do that, you must burn the boats. You must agree and accept that the worst of the worst can happen and you must nod at that reality and walk away from it. You do not have to apologize for the possibility of tragedy whilst you enjoy the good times. You must simply enjoy the good times and look to make things better.