Reboot, by Jerry Colonna, asks a marvelous question: “How am I complicit in creating the conditions I wish to avoid?” It’s a very stealthily difficult, probing question to think about. One of the things it may bring to the forefront is how many of us try and not disappoint others, and thereby we very much disappoint ourselves in the process. We live lives other people, we think, would want us to live. We do things we think others wish us to do. We put our emotions on auto pilot to be this “other” for someone else, while never taking the time to decipher if we, ourselves, wish to be the “other.” Another way: we never think about who we may be or what we may want inside. Disappointment has a way of taking up space in your head. It’s an automatic door closer to possibilities in the world that our true selves would be open to. It takes time to de-clutter the mind and understand our expectations for ourselves, rather than other’s expectations of us, but it’s a job well worth the effort.
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