For decades now, I’ve read every bit of philosophy and wisdom I’ve gotten my hands on. Russell to Hume to Seneca to Aristotle to Aurelius to Spinoza to Thoreau to everyone in between. Searching. Always searching. Then it came to me recently that I had no idea what it was that I was actually searching for. Was it a roadmap on how to live? The Talmud seems to be silent on the type of car I should lease. Was it a pursuit of happiness? How would I even know once I found it, and what if happiness was mostly genetically predisposed to someone. Was it thriving in business? Most philosophers (save, Seneca) were poor and didn’t touch on that. No, it wasn’t any of that-seemingly I was doing this simply to distract.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The one thing I continue to be unable to face is myself in silence. In other words, I cannot seem to answer what it is that I want. What it is that I’m searching for. I’m digging holes across the field but, even after all of these years, I’ve no idea what answers I’m even looking for. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
A thought came to me the other day: Just drop all of it. Drop the searching. Drop the conflicting sage advice one receives in searching for wisdom. Allow the silence to take shape, and don’t expect anything beyond that. Stop moving around. See what comes up.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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